I think one of the most frustrating times any seeker of God’s kingdom can experience is feeling dry, parched, detached, and distant from God in a room full of people who who seem to be experiencing the rush and satisfaction of a soul saturated and more than aware of the presence of the Holy Spirit.
In those times, I’ve always felt so alone, as if those who were drinking in the presence of God were completely clueless that though I had the cup to my lips, no water was getting inside – dying of thirst with cracked lips, going through the motions, earnestly seeking, definitely not finding. I was dry and weary in the middle of a steady rain and the longer I stood there, the more frustrated I became.
God doesn’t exist so I can do the backstroke and always be satisfied. I was created to be in relationship with him and to worship him, even when I feel dry and stretched and weary. The Psalmist David wrote the following in the Psalm 63 (MSG) v. 1 God—you’re my God! I can’t get enough of you! I’ve worked up such hunger and thirst for God, traveling across dry and weary deserts. If I never felt thirsty, I would never desire for that thirst to be slaked. If I never traversed the desert, I’d never appreciate swimming in a refreshing lake.
Life is cyclical, as is the weather. I can’t always live in perfect balance, life gets lopsided and I must continue to seek God even when I don’t feel like it. When the desert wind has cracked my skin, I must remember, the oasis will appear when I least expect it and need it most.
v. 2-3 So here I am in the place of worship, eyes open, drinking in your strength and glory. In your generous love I am really living at last! And in that place, we can’t help but respond as David: v. 4 My lips brim praises like fountains. I bless you every time I take a breath; My arms wave like banners of praise to you.
In the midst of that praise, I’ve often felt the rain drops running down my face mixed with tears, and in that moment I know, it’s all going to be all right.
Sometimes dark clouds are indicators that better days are ahead. If you are dry and weary, I urge you to go dance in the rain.