At a recent Bible study, someone mentioned that the Hebrew word for peace, Shalom, was translated as wholeness.
My entire life, the word peace has been referred to as a feeling or emotion that is sought after, desired and coveted. How often have I heard someone I know say, “I just have a peace about it,” or “I’ll know God wants me to do (want, go) this when I feel His peace,” over the course of my life.
How empty I’ve felt when I haven’t felt…”it.”
This word, “wholeness” being thrown into the mix really threw me. Wholeness isn’t a feeling, it is a state of being… the sense of being restored and complete, not finished, yet… at peace.
In my journey of healing, I think I am beginning to understand peace in this context of wholeness. For lack of a better word, I feel God’s peace and yes, it is totally beyond the comprehension and understanding of my limited human brain. I cannot achieve peace. I can pursue it, but I will never find it.
Peace is a gift from God and is a byproduct of allowing God to heal me and take all the broken pieces of my life and redeem them into something beautiful and restore me to a place I thought I’d never be. The more whole I become, the more peace saturates my being.
I can’t explain peace, but since it transcends all understanding, my words are a feeble attempt. Just know I’m grateful I can stop chasing peace and let God continue his work.