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Copied from Liz.

i am: trying to catch up with Battlestar Galactica.
i think: I have only begun to discover and tap into my potential.
i know: I am capable of so much more.
i want: to feel energetic, rested and normal all at the same time.
i have: a list of things I want to do/ accomplish/ experience than a person could possibly do in a lifetime – but I’m going to give it my best shot.
i wish: I had more courage.
i hate: the 8-5 life.
i miss: the energy i had in college.
i fear: crossing the finish line alone to silence.
i feel: hope, more than I ever have.
i hear: Doctor Who on the telly.
i smell: chocolate simply because I can’t eat it.
i crave: touch.
i search: for the sacred in the everyday.
i wonder: what tomorrow holds.
i regret: not fighting harder for the dreams I let go of a long time ago.
i love: being worn out after a day laughing and playing with friends.
i ache: to hold God’s promises in my arms.
i care: about the broken.
i always: think too much. at least I think I do.
i am not: finished.
i believe: I can do anything if I set my mind to it and let God drive.
i dance: in the rain, in the living room, in the midst of children.
i sing: as much as I can.
i don’t always: let my emotions show.
i fight: with myself, my spirit and my mind battle.
i write: to know and be known, as a confession and a prayer.
i win: when I don’t give up.
i lose: when I give up.
i never: eat liver and onions, jump out of airplanes, sneeze daintily.
i confuse: lots of people and sometimes myself.
i listen: to music almost every hour I’m not sleeping.
i can usually be found: writing or reading.
i am scared: to let my guard down completely.
i need: hugs.
i am happy about: all the progress I’ve made on the journey.

You?

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BAD CELL PHONE KARMA

My refurbished replacement phone has issues.

Most of my conversations over the past two days have gone as follows:

Caller: “Hello?”
Me: “Hello!”
Caller: “Are you there?”
Me: “Hello!”
Caller: “I can’t hear you… I’ll call back later.”

UGH.

So I called the people who replaced my phone with this lovely refurbished replacement and told them it was unacceptable.

Fortunately, I was within the 30 day window and therefore a NEW Katana II is on its way and should be here Tuesday. The safest thing I can do is text.

Sigh.

First bad popcorn karma and now this. Good thing I don’t believe in karma.

Posted in clumsy moments, random

GOODBYE KATANA BLUE

Before you get misty-eyed, I should tell you that Katana Blue was my cell phone… up until last Tuesday night anyway. Katana Blue and I had been friends since I purchased her just before my great vacation last June. She was a great phone, and will be missed greatly.

Katana Blue was a victim of my many recent sleepless nights. When I don’t get enough sleep, I start to lose what little coordination and sense I have. When I get to the point of exhaustion, especially brain exhaustion…accidents… clumsy moments happen.

I am a compulsive pre-laundry pocket checker. My mother used to raise cane if we left so much as a tissue in our pockets, which fascinated me because by the time the clothes were dry, the issue had been solved. Still, to this day, my pockets are almost always empty (my roommate washes money frequently but still claims not to be a “money launderer”). Combine my tiredness with my new cargo pants with the nifty cellphone-sized leg pocket and the recipe for disaster was complete.

I was exhausted when I came home from work Tuesday and I started my laundry. I usually have the cell phone next to my computer on the kitchen table while I cook. I didn’t even realize my phone had gone missing until the washer came to a stop. I opened the washing machine and saw a red light glowing up at me and knew instantly my phone was fubar.

I told Jene’ I was in trouble and she turned from the stove and asked me why so I held up the dripping Katana Blue with the glowing red light mocking me. I threw my clothes in the dryer and drove straight to the Sprint store and ordered my replacement phone. Thank goodness I hadn’t cancelled the insurance on the phone, otherwise Katana Blue’s demise would certainly have been more costly.

Later that night Jene’ stood in my doorway and said, “this is so unlike you because you are always aware of where your phone is.” She’s right. In 8 years as a cell phone owner, I have never lost a phone, and I can count on one hand the times I’ve even dropped one.

Yes, I almost always know where my phone is, but I’m more aware I haven’t had enough sleep lately.

Two days before Katana Blue was laundered to death, I was at the Sprint store securing a way to have internet service after Jene’ moves out. The young man who waited on me had told me he had several stories of cell phone loss or damage. His favorite? A woman who was at a club was so drunk that when she was leaving the bathroom that when she realized she didn’t have any money to tip the bathroom attendant – she gave the woman her cell phone.

I don’t think sending my phone through the spin cycle of my Kenmore will beat that story.

I had to send an email to all my friends and ask for their phone numbers and endure endless blonde jokes the next day at work. Sadly, the company that provided my replacement did not have a blue Katana. Instead, I got a bit of an upgrade to a Katana 2 Black, which arrived on Thursday. Two hours after I programmed every last number back in, I was back in business.

Tonight, I was tacking the back pocket flaps down on my cargo pants and Jene’ laughed because she thought I was sewing the leg pocket closed so I would never leave my cell phone in them again. While that might seem like a good idea given my sleepless state and propensity for clumsy moments, it is the only place I can put my phone when I wear those pants.

Instead, I will make a sign for the lid of the washer that says, “HAVE YOU EMPTIED YOUR POCKETS?! ALL OF THEM?!” When I get too tired to notice that, then you’ll be reading about the demise of Katana 2 Black.

What I need instead, is a good night’s sleep…with my phone right by my alarm clock.

Posted in random, sports

SNOWBOARDING ON ASPHALT

Today I spent some time with my friend Elizabeth and her daughter, aka Catt. Catt always has some new toy she loves to show me. (Catt is 18 – lol). She had a Ripstick, which is as close as you can get to snowboarding (she says) without snow. We played with that for a while and it’s a cross between a skateboard and an inline skate. Keeping my balance was great fun. Didn’t get very far, but I had to try it.

No injuries to report. 🙂

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SEW WHAT

One of the great things about my new job is that I can wear pretty much whatever I want. Therefore, I wear jeans most days. Trouble is, I have two pairs of jeans that actually fit. I was not wearing one of those pairs yesterday.

I was walking down the hallway, my jeans clinging only slightly to my hips, therefore being a little longer than I’m used to. I took a step forward and nearly tripped over my jeans. I had I succeeded, my jeans would have slid down my legs in a heartbeat. I probably would have laughed about it in 20 years.

My only saving grace would have been that I took a little girl’s advice: “If your pants are going to fall down you should be wearing pretty panties.” Thanks, Julia.

I’ve been hitting the clearance racks everywhere I can think of to pick up some tops. I can never find pants I like, but tonight I struck gold at Target and bought two pairs of cargo pants that fit. In the Misses section.

Despite my finds, I’m going to break out the sewing machine this weekend and dart some pants and shorts and try to extend their lives just a little longer so I don’t have to buy clothes for a while.

I hope I don’t have to go buy thread…

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THINGS I HAVE LEARNED ABOUT MYSELF

Every once in a while, I take a personal inventory and now is as good a time as any to reveal some of the random/strange things I have learned about myself.

1. I can no longer pull an “all nighter” for fun, though the person I was with, 15 years my junior, fell asleep before I did.

2. I can no longer drink an unlimited amount of soda in 36 hours’ time. I am super-sensitive to sugar now and the sugar hangovers feel worse than a “regular” hangover.

3. I can no longer wear hip, cool shoes, especially those with heels over an inch. If they make my feet hurt in the store… well… chances are I can’t wear them longer than 10 minutes and frankly, what’s the point? I am not one of those women who will endure pain for fashion.

4. When feeling the euphoria of carpe diem, remember to pack comfy shoes and a snack.

5. If coloring one’s hair a shade lighter produces “blonder” behavior, going a shade darker doesn’t reverse the trend.

6. Two snapeas does not a meal make.

7. If I know a high protein breakfast starts my day out best, perhaps I should eat a high protein breakfast every day.

8. A journey to the shrine of St. Arbuck’s is never wasted time.

9. If I leave my homework bag in the middle of the floor, I can’t get upset about tripping over it. Dems da berries.

10. I am as old as I feel. Today, that would mean I feel like I did when I was 21 years old. Last Monday, though, I felt about 60 (no offense to anyone out there who is 60 or older). Apparently I can feel several different ages in a short time period. I wish my body would just pick one, preferably on the lower end of the scale.

I’m sure I’ll learn something about myself later today as well…

Posted in quoted, random

YEARNING

I was checking some of my favorite blogs today and came across a Khalil Gibran quote on Daley Hake’s site (incredible photography – check it out).

I would not exchange the sorrows of my heart for the joys of the multitude. And I would not have the tears that sadness makes to flow from my every part turn into laughter. I would that my life remain a tear and a smile. A tear to purify my heart and give me understanding of life’s secrets and hidden things. A smile to draw me nigh to the sons of my kinds and to be a symbol of my glorification of the gods. A tear to unite me with those of broken heart; a smile to be a sign of my joy in existence. I would rather that I die in yearning and longing than that I lived weary and despairing. I want to hunger for love and beauty to be in the depths of my spirit, for I have seen those who are satisfied the most wretched people. I have heard the sigh of those in yearning and longing, and it is sweeter than the sweetest melody. – Khalil Gibran

The part of this quote that stuck out to me (today) is: I would rather that I die in yearning and longing than that I lived weary and despairing.

When I think of yearning, I think of hunger. I have a few yearnings that, in learning to listen and not ignore what they’re trying to tell me, teach me more about myself than if I’d been handed everything I’d ever wanted and could recline satisfied.

It wasn’t that long ago I lived weary and despairing because I had nothing to yearn for. Then I learned that life isn’t about getting everything I want. All I learn about life if I get everything I want is… how to be full. Funny how sometimes being full is more uncomfortable than being hungry.

That’s your random thought for the evening. I’m going to listen to some more jazz and rain and go to bed.

Posted in music, random, weather

JAZZ & RAIN

Tonight, it’s raining in Houston, but it’s a gentle rain and not one of those downpours that make me wonder if I’ll be driving through standing water on the way to work.

Gentle rains seem to only come in the winter. In the summer, storms tear through town, dumping inches of rain in a small amount of time or the air is so thick with humidity it might as well be raining.

With my favorite shows on an indefinite hiatus (writer’s strike) there’s a glut of new reality and game shows in their place… and I’m not a big fan of either. There’s not any good sporting events on right now, so I turned to one of my Sirius jazz channels and I’m just chilling, listening to jazz and rain.

This is one of those random brain-fried posts, but at least I have good music to listen to.

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WHO’S YOUR GOOGLEGANGER?

Every year the American Dialect Society picks a word of the year. One of the words was Googleganger: a person with your name who shows up when you Google yourself.

I’ve done this and oddly enough many of the people who share my name are teachers or are involved in literature somehow.

So, who’s your Googleganger?