A NEW YEAR POST CANCER: THE ART OF SPOON MANAGEMENT

I went to see my beautician last week, the wonderful Nora who has cut and colored my hair for almost 10 years.  I asked her to do something that absolutely irritated her.  I asked her to cut my hair very, very short. At first, she didn’t understand why a “bob” cut wasn’t going to be…

O COME, O COME EMMANUEL

As I lit the Advent candles today I was listening to Robbie Seay’s “Mary’s Song.” I had to snap this photo as a reminder that though God is with us, remembering/learning how to anticipate Him is a valuable and enriching experience. My soul magnifies the Lord, My soul magnifies the Lord, Holy is His name!…

IS THAT STEAM FROM A BIG TRAIN OR JUST BRAIN FOG?

Yesterday one of my friends compared Tamoxifen to Liquid Drano running through the body. That’s a great way to put it. This week was overwhelming in terms of emotional and physical stress.  I won’t go into all the details, but there have been people lost to people I care about, year-end work stress, personal stress,…

WHEN SUPERWOMAN LOSES HER CAPE

It’s been a little over three months since my treatments ended, and almost three months since I’ve been on Tamoxifen.  It’s been a roller coaster ride for sure. I have a love/hate relationship with Tamoxifen.  I love that it has the potential to keep breast cancer from ever coming back, but I hate how I…

WARRIORS IN PINK

April 1st I got a mammogram. I’ve been getting them for seven years now. Every year I am grateful for good results, considering how breast cancer has ravaged my family. This year, April melted into a slow parade of doctor’s appointments, highlighted by a stereotactic biopsy, which goes down in my personal history as my…

HEAVEN COME MY WAY

This is just the way God orchestrates my life.  My BFF in Cali and I were talking about moving forward and keep pressing on, and after I accidentally set off a death/speed metal concert in my room (at midnight) I stumbled across this song from Abandon Kansas. The words are perfect, just perfect. Heaven Come…

A MIRACLE IN THE CHAOS

Only God knows how this baby didn’t drown or get smashed by debris, but three days after she was swept away, she was found and reunited with her overjoyed parents. #prayforjapan

THE ELUSIVE, YET STUNNING BEAUTY WITHIN SUCH MALADY

I enjoy reading the Owl City Blog.   Even though Adam is my mirror age (24), I can identify with so much of what he writes, especially his recent entry about his struggles with insomnia.  It’s a funny thing. Even now I often find myself wide awake staring at the ceiling, and when the Ambien runs out,…

HITCHHIKER BIRTHDAY AND THE BATTLE OF SUCKUARY

Though I’ve been battling a bad sinus infection this week, I have to admit, my birthday week has been good.  I’ve been to dinners, been treated to cupcakes and cake and a Cafe’ Express’ veggie burger and sweet potato fries. I’ve received wonderful cards and well wishes, some deliciously aromatic coffee and a Colts mug…

MY HOPE IS FOUND

The song, In Christ Alone (Getty/Townsend)  relates to my last post about learning to die. This song was introduced to me about three years ago in my small group by Joe Ben Combs.  The message is simple, but powerful.  It reminds me of the hope we have in a victory already won. A few weeks…

TEACH ME HOW TO DIE

2010 has been one of my most challenging years yet. It’s not that I think any year will be easier than the other, I just usually have some hope of a break from the snares I still struggle with.  If only I could spray some kind of teflon on my legs so when the snares…

THE BONFIRE OF INTOLERANCE

This week I have watched a misguided pastor in Gainesville, Florida, take the media hostage by exercising his right to his Freedom of Speech. What this man has reminded me is that Freedom of Speech is every American’s right even if that right gives an ignorant, intolerant person an opportunity to spread their ignorance. He’s also…