YES, MAMMOGRAMS HURT, BUT…

Get your mammogram! I get asked often, “does it hurt?” Yes… BUT It does not hurt as much as 2nd degree radiation burns during treatment. It does not hurt as much as the old school c-section style hysterectomy I had to get because I had to take meds to keep the cancer from returning that…

REST

Grateful for times of rest. I depend on them more than people know. Having an “invisible” chronic illness isn’t easy, especially when I still want to go at life full speed. I am ever convinced that no matter how much I explain how I feel/what I am going through, there will be those who see…

S. A. D. AND TAMOXIFEN WITHDRAWAL

I am not a big fan of the fall time change.  To be honest, I’m not a fan of time change for daylight “savings” at all. I grew up in Indiana, where until recently, Daylight Savings Time did not exist. Until I moved to Houston, I had no idea how to change the time on…

LIFE POST-TAMOXIFEN, 2 MONTHS

Today marks the end of my second month of freedom from Tamoxifen.  I can honestly say that stopping the consumption of such a life-altering drug has been one of the best choices I’ve made in a long time.  I appreciate most having my brain back and having a boost in energy. This week I have…

LIFE SUPPORT

I did something Friday I thought I would never do – I joined a gym.  I had been thinking about it for awhile, but didn’t think I could afford to do that. In fact, I really can’t afford to do that right now, but I can’t afford not to, either. The money part will work…

TWO THINGS I’M WONDERING ABOUT POST-SURGERY

I had these thoughts today about life post-surgery: 1. What if my nose doesn’t lose any weight but the rest of my face does? 2. What if I lose weight in my feet? Will I get shorter? Will my shoes still fit? These things may not be important to you, but as someone who has…

ONE OF THOSE DAYS (I want my life back)

I had a low grade fever most of the day, and though I wanted to be home in bed, since I have dismally few sick days I pushed myself to go work. I had wanted to go out tonight and be with friends, but the fever didn’t leave. I cried all the way home. I…

THE DEPTH OF A TATTOO NEEDLE

I finally decided to get my second tattoo.  Since I had breast cancer last year, I knew this tattoo would be an Ebeneezer from that journey. I wanted it to be visible this time (my first one is on my back) so it would be a constant reminder to be strong, courageous and grateful. I…

A NEW YEAR POST CANCER: THE ART OF SPOON MANAGEMENT

I went to see my beautician last week, the wonderful Nora who has cut and colored my hair for almost 10 years.  I asked her to do something that absolutely irritated her.  I asked her to cut my hair very, very short. At first, she didn’t understand why a “bob” cut wasn’t going to be…

IS THAT STEAM FROM A BIG TRAIN OR JUST BRAIN FOG?

Yesterday one of my friends compared Tamoxifen to Liquid Drano running through the body. That’s a great way to put it. This week was overwhelming in terms of emotional and physical stress.  I won’t go into all the details, but there have been people lost to people I care about, year-end work stress, personal stress,…

WHEN SUPERWOMAN LOSES HER CAPE

It’s been a little over three months since my treatments ended, and almost three months since I’ve been on Tamoxifen.  It’s been a roller coaster ride for sure. I have a love/hate relationship with Tamoxifen.  I love that it has the potential to keep breast cancer from ever coming back, but I hate how I…