REST

Grateful for times of rest. I depend on them more than people know. Having an “invisible” chronic illness isn’t easy, especially when I still want to go at life full speed. I am ever convinced that no matter how much I explain how I feel/what I am going through, there will be those who see…

S. A. D. AND TAMOXIFEN WITHDRAWAL

I am not a big fan of the fall time change.  To be honest, I’m not a fan of time change for daylight “savings” at all. I grew up in Indiana, where until recently, Daylight Savings Time did not exist. Until I moved to Houston, I had no idea how to change the time on…

FEELING WHAT I FEEL

I have been sorting myself out for 45 years. I have found that I have two sides to me that are in constant conflict with each other. Given that my two favorite colors are blue and orange, it shouldn’t be a surprise I view those two sides as fire and water. I am by no…

OUT OF CONTROL

I have many things in my life that are “out of control.” Ten years ago, that fact would have terrified me and let me straight into a depressive spin. Now, I find that fact so liberating I almost want to bake a vegan cake to celebrate. WEIGHT LOSS: I am down 54 pounds as of…

HOLDING, 10 YARD PENALTY FROM THE SPOT OF THE FOUL

I’ve been lingering right under 50 pounds in my pursuit of losing 100 pounds. I have been at the gym quite a bit lately, and I know that’s holding the scale hostage somewhat. I am going broke buying clothes and have purchased my last until January unless I go through such a weight loss spurt…

CLOSING IN ON ONEDERLAND

When I was a kid, Memorial Day marked opening weekend at the lake cottage my grandparents owned. I grew up in the water, learning to swim early on and becoming an expert in water and boat safety whether I’d planned to or not.  I was a strong swimmer and yes, my element is water. I…

POST-OP MUSINGS

Well, Monday has come and gone. I had my surgery! I have entered the two week period of “What did I just do to myself!” and the endless sipping of liquids. The surgery went well. After surgery I had an extremely difficult time for a few hours with the nausea and being paler than usual….

WHERE I AM, WHERE I’M GOING

Tomorrow is the day! RNY Gastric Bypass Surgery. After 8 months, the day has arrived. After surgery, it’s up to me to make the weight loss stick. I am more determined than ever to stay healthy!

ONE WEEK TO GO!

I’m down about 8-9 pounds on the high protein pre-op liquid diet.  I stopped begging people to bring me a bucket of chicken (kidding) on Thursday. I finally am experiencing ketosis, which basically means my liver is shrinking and my fat is burning.  I am no longer “hungry.”  I can understand why people fast. It…

VANILLA & ORANGE CREAM LIFE

I have started the pre-op liquid diet. 3-5 shakes a day of two flavors (vanilla and orange cream). Don’t know how much weight, if any, this particular part of the journey will remove, but the shakes will help me prepare my liver to move out of the way for surgery (by shrinking).   Am I…

RUBBER, MEET ROAD

Tomorrow I go see my bariatric surgeon for my pre-op appointment. I will also get my vitamins and the protein powder for my liquid diet.  It’s here, folks, the moment I’ve waited for since August. Finally moving forward with my weight loss surgery! Ever since I made the decision to walk this path, I have…

FORCED REST – YES, THAT’S GOING WELL

I’m almost three weeks out from my surgery now. I’m out of the big pain meds and am surviving on hands full of ibuprofen. I’m still falling asleep at random times, proving I still need rest.  I have issues with staying still most of the time. I was one of those kids with perfect attendance…